I KNOW THAT’S THE BEST FOR HER
It was a sunny and hot day. After the pnp, my classmates and I went to the surau to perform our Zuhur prayer. Then I headed back to my class, planning to have a nap before we started our studygroup. I was in the BM room, lied there,trying to close my eyes when suddenly I heard Amar’s and Aufa’s sweet voice. I unlocked the door, went into my class as it was just a next door. A friend of mine approached me and told me that Amar and Aufa were looking for me. I was a bit shocked. Then I packed my things and went out to find them. My driver was waiting for me. From the look, I knew something’s wrong. As I approached him, I asked him what’s wrong? He asked me to wait for my other siblings. I put my things in the car and rushed to the ICT lab as Atif (my F1 brother) was in there,having a class. Then we both walked to the car. Aufa said to me; “Umie is not well,isnt she?”. I just gave her an “umm..” Not knowing what else to do, I cried. The car was accelerating and finally we reached home. As we came out from the car, my brother came and told us that umie’s gone. Aufa was in a state of shocked. She cried out loud and I hugged her. I tried to comfort her, but my strong soul couldnt stand anymore. We both burst into tears. After a while, I stepped into the house and dashed off to my room. I locked the door and cried. I cried and cried as I couldnt stand the pain anymore…I forced my weak body to stand and went to the toilet. I washed my face and took my wudhuk. Then I heard my Mama calling for me. She came in and softly talked to me. She explained how its all happened. My tears were running through my cheek. After changing my clothes, I went down. I tried not to cry in front of Umie. I didnt want her to feel sad. I took the Yassin and started to recite it. There was a long pause as I couldnt stand anymore. I regained my strength and finished my yassin. Sadly, I didnt looked at her. I didnt have the strength!! I took Aufa upstairs and met my two best cousins. We sat in my room without a word. As for me, I was waiting for Nahawan. Meanwhile, I texted a few teachers and friends saying that I lost Umie. Nahawan was home. She cried and hugged me meaningfully. My teachers and friends came that evening, feeling sorry for my lost. The clock was pointing at 7:45 and I heard my sisters’s voice. They drove all the way from KL. We hugged each other and went to Umie’s room. I took care of Adam and Farees as my two sisters were busy helping to bath Umie. They took Umie to the mosque at 9:45. The whole siblings were there and gave Umie our last kiss. Amar…who seemed not to understand what was happening cried when they took Umie to the mosque. That was the hardest part of my life, watching my brothers and sisters crying together.Then, I went back to my room. Lying so helplessly in bed. My head was aching so much. Tho I kindda redha with her lost, I still couldnt face the fact she’s gone forever. Iqlimma and Sarah came that night. Honestly, I was comforted with their presence. Eventho they didnt talked much, I thanked them for coming. That was the time I needed my friends the most. When everyone went home, my family gathered. That was the moment everyone’s waiting for I guess. It’s been a long time since we had a gathering. Each and evey single of the family member has the opportunity to speak. Everything was cleared! You see..I felt like Umie was there. Watching the whole family become closed again. For sometime, I realized there’s nothing to be sad off anymore. As Umie left us something..something that is much more important to us..the LOVE. Precious love among the family. Ayah,mama, k.long, abg farid, k.na, abg poje, abg long, abg yoe, abg anam, adnin, nahwan, atif, aufa and amar. Not to forget my two cute Adam and Farees. Thanks for raising me up Umie. I just wanted you to know how much we love you.AL-FATIHAH~
